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$xhtml = array(
	'<{title}>' => 'No motivation',
	'takedown' => '2017-11-01',
	'<{body}>' => <<<END
<section id="drudgery">
	<h2>Drudgery</h2>
	<p>
		I had a few things I needed to get done at a bare minimum coursework-wise before I headed to the $a[EUGLUG] meeting, but I couldn&apos;t bring myself to do hardly any of them.
		I&apos;m still suffering the effects of burning out yesterday.
		As a result, I had to stay home and finish up.
		And now I have the minimal stuff done, but I don&apos;t have anything else done.
		I&apos;m massively behind, and it&apos;s only the first day of the week.
		The way I see it, I have only one choice: I have to pull an all-nighter and get caught back up.
		Otherwise, I&apos;m going to fail so hard this week.
	</p>
	<p>
		My discussion post for the day:
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<h3>No access to the reading assignments</h3>
		<p>
			The <a href="https://www.maryvillecollege.edu/media/dsx/manager/Faculty/BehavioralSciences/lschmied/Hardiness.pdf"><code>https://www.maryvillecollege.edu/media/dsx/manager/Faculty/BehavioralSciences/lschmied/Hardiness.pdf</code></a> page refuses to load for me.
			At all.
			Sources tell me this site is still functional.
			There could be a network issue on their end, but I suspect it&apos;s just a badly-configured server.
			Some servers are programmed not to send bask a response, not even a <code>403</code> error, to clients at $a[IP] addresses they don&apos;t like.
		</p>
		<p>
			The <code>www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov</code> website is still blocking me as well, though they&apos;re polite enough to at least redirect to an error page.
			This is the same website we&apos;ve had reading assignments on during two other weeks, and I&apos;ve complained both times about the reading assignments being out of reach for me.
			Nothing seems to be being done about the problem.
		</p>
		<img src="/img/CC_BY-SA_4.0/y.st./coursework/PSYC1111/error3.png" alt="No access" class="framed-centred-image" width="962" height="538"/>
		<p>
			So, that means I&apos;ve only got access to one of the three reading assignments for the week.
			The discussion post instructions say to draw from all of the readings, but obviously, I can&apos;t draw from what I can&apos;t read.
			So I can only cite the one textbook, which is hosted on this school&apos;s own website, which doesn&apos;t seem to maliciously discriminate against certain $a[IP] addresses like the other two websites are doing.
		</p>
		<h3>Pain</h3>
		<p>
			I&apos;m a clumsy ape with a tendency to let my mind wander, so minor pain is a common occurrence for me.
			I&apos;ll bump into something, pinch my hand in something, or grab something hot without even thinking to see if it&apos;s hot first.
			For example, a coworker brought a hot pan to the dish sink.
			When I went back to wash dishes, I saw the pan and I didn&apos;t think it might be hot; it was in the sink, not over by the ovens.
			I grabbed it to wash it and burnt myself.
		</p>
		<p>
			I guess the last time I hurt myself was that hot pan incident I mentioned before.
			The only real psychological factor was that I wrote it off after examining my hand.
			There didn&apos;t seem to be any visible damage, so it couldn&apos;t be that bad, so I just continued working.
			Having deemed the injury irrelevant, the pain died back fairly quickly, then soon disappeared altogether.
			This could be attributed to getting distracted by my work, or it could be attributed to having written the pain off as meaningless.
			The book suggests that distraction can reduce or eliminate pain, while perception of relevance can reduce, eliminate, or even increase levels of pain (Ogden, 2017).
			With how frequently I cause myself such small injuries, I&apos;d be pretty useless if I dwelled on them, for any length of time, so I tend to just write them off after a short just-in-case-this-time-was-bad examination.
		</p>
		<p>
			As far as more major pain, the last time I remember dealing with a lot of pain was when I had some teeth removed.
			The last tooth I had removed wasn&apos;t so bad, but the time before that was terrible.
			I laid in bed for hours, and whenever I tried to get up, the high level of pain caused me nausea.
			Maybe if I wrote off that pain, it too would have gone away quicker.
			Instead, the only real coping mechanism I had was to lie in bed and rest, seeing as I don&apos;t use painkillers.
			This lying down instead of working through the pain let to more attention being given to the pain, which may have increased the intensity of the pain itself.
			If I recall, after having gone to bed for the night, I woke up with much-reduced pain in the morning.
			From there, the little remaining pain died away slowly over the next couple days.
		</p>
		<div class="APA_references">
			<h3>References:</h3>
			<p>
				Ogden, J. (2017). The Psychology of Health and Illness: An Open Access Course. Retrieved from <a href="https://my.uopeople.edu/pluginfile.php/326138/mod_book/chapter/166764/Ogden-The_psychology_of_health_and_illness.pdf"><code>https://my.uopeople.edu/pluginfile.php/326138/mod_book/chapter/166764/Ogden-The_psychology_of_health_and_illness.pdf</code></a>
			</p>
		</div>
	</blockquote>
</section>
<section id="binge">
	<h2>Binge</h2>
	<p>
		Due to all the stress, I ended up binging today.
		I ate an entire pie, as well as two bags of pretzels.
		This really isn&apos;t good for my diet.
		That said, I can only fail so many times.
		I&apos;ve had that pie in my freezer since before I went on a diet.
		Now there&apos;s no more pie.
		I can&apos;t fail my diet by eating an entire pie again.
		It simply isn&apos;t going to happen.
		I bought those pretzels to take to $a[EUGLUG] meetings, but I never should have bought them.
		I usually bring healthier snacks, but those were on sale.
		I&apos;ll try not to make that mistake again.
		Having junk food around the apartment isn&apos;t a good idea.
	</p>
</section>
END
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